Not been posting lately because I’ve been reading and growing and getting wrecked. . . in a good way. Like I said, God is blowing it up with x-hookers and strippers and porn stars, wrecking our idea of what a “Christian” looks like, acts like and says. I’ve heard the example that Jesus wouldn’t be welcome in most of our churches. People kind of throw that around, but how sad, really really sad is that. I say bring on the wrecking ball. If I wanted to stay in my pretty little life, I couldn’t anyway. I would self-destruct; I almost did.
I found myself in trouble and went looking for my Lord;
my life was an open wound that wouldn’t heal.
When friends said, “Everything will turn out all right,”
I didn’t believe a word they said.
I remember God—and shake my head.
I bow my head—then wring my hands.
I’m awake all night—not a wink of sleep;
I can’t even say what’s bothering me.
I go over the days one by one,
I ponder the years gone by.
I strum my lute all through the night,
wondering how to get my life together. Psalm 77:2-6 The Message
Thank you, Jesus! He doesn’t leave us hanging. He never will leave us or forsake us. Why can’t we get this through our God-given, free willin’ brain! He spurs his people that do get this to write amazing, gut-wrenching books that would quite literally punch you in face, if a book could do that.
Such Books I just read, am reading and plan to read next:
Crazy Love by Francis Chan, this totally got me off my butt in the first place. ALL PROCEEDS FROM THIS BOOK GO TO HELP SEX TRAFFICKING VICTIMS (does anybody see a trend here?????)
Esther Bible Study by Beth Moore, It’s Tough Being a Woman. Shook me out of my poor-me attitude.
Get Out of That Pit by Beth Moore, ok, I’m coming out now, I don’t want to be here anymore.
The Gutter by Craig Gross, if you’re just tuning in, go back a few posts, that book started me on this blog journey against slavery.
Forgotten God by Francis Chan, WE HAVE THE INDWELLING GOD IN US! The same power that raised Jesus from the dead! How can we still stay so stagnant? “Thinking, questioning, and talking can take the place of letting the Spirit affect our immediate actions in radical ways.” -Francis Chan
So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore. Hello, my whole life lived insecure, but now I know I AM CLOTHED WITH STRENGTH AND DIGNITY. And really own what the Psalmist says, paraphrased, “God’s now at my side and I’m not afraid; who would dare lay a hand on me?” (Psalm 118:6, The Message)
Starving Jesus by Craig Gross and JR Mahon. Oh, yeah, just started this and can’t wait for the wrecking ball.
And then I have Jesus Loves You this I know by Craig Gross and Jason Harper!
I just love God so much! Thank you, Jesus, for being radical and thank you, Holy Spirit, that I’ll never ever be alone and I never have to be afraid!
